100 things about me…

Since I have been working from home the last few days, thanks to the breathing trouble, I have had a lot of time to mull over my life and do a lot of introspection. So continued from here

1. I am overly self critical
2. I am grossly misunderstood
3. I am a loner
4. I binge eat
5. I did not worry about my weight, but I do now
6. I do not like people
7. I have been a victim of incest
8. I studied social work just out of curiosity
9. I am one of the biggest procrastinators EVER
10. I do not care about pleasing people
11. I enjoy sex more than I wish I would
12. I smoked weed once just so that I would seem cool to the people I hung out with
13. I hate mice. I am not scared of them, I just think that they are utterly disgusting
14. I have had several relationships. Not even one worked out
15. The longest relationship I have been in lasted 3 years
16. I do not like to smoke. But I smoke anyway. I don’t really know why.
17. I am a spendthrift.
18. I was born two months premature and I have had a very sick childhood
19. I have thought of committing suicide. Thrice. Then realized that it’s not worth all that trouble.
20. I bordered alcoholism.
21. I have been severely depressed once.
22. I do not wound people with logic. I disarm them with acceptance.
23. I like to savour pain.
24. I can’t stand fish.
25. I have had a one night stand.
26. I have been in love. Thrice.
27. People find it hard to dump me face to face. So they never dump me. They just vanish. Out of the 6 serious relationships I have had, I only know the whereabouts of 1 man.
28. I have an insatiable appetite for movies.
29. I wish I was prettier.
30. I love my dog more than I love anyone else.
31. I love to experiment in the kitchen.
32. I love to play hostess.
33. I smile. No matter what.
34. People find it easy to talk to me about anything and everything.
35. I bought all 10 seasons of FRIENDS. I have seen each episode about a 100 times.
36. I hate stuffed toys
37. I nag sometimes.
38. I used to hate ‘maybes’ but ‘maybe’ has not become the centerpiece of all my life’s circumstances.
39. I studied psychology just so that I could begin to fathom myself.
40. I am a good friend.
41. I photograph well, or so they say.
42. I am a difficult person to live with. Or so some people would say.
43. I am a good cook.
44. I hate my hair.
45. I researched on the prices of cottages in Tuscany. I will someday buy one of those.
46. Every time I think of my old age, I picture myself alone. I am not scared of that thought anymore.
47. I see marriage as a means of escape from my family
48. Home videos bore me.
49. I have a very small appetite for food.
50. I wish I had studied Gothic Imagination.
51. I feel truth is highly overrated.
52. I am an awesome boss.
53. I get pissed off very quickly.
54. I am extremely insecure.
55. I enjoy silences.
56. I enjoy Black Metal.
57. I feel good intentions seldom translate into good actions.
58. I used to loan money to people and forget. Now I do not loan any money.
59. I am still high maintenance. Love to indulge.
60. I hate more than I like.
61. I feel I can do better in life. And I sincerely wish that my mom never finds out that I ahve admitted this.
62. Right now, 4 guys are simultaneously showing interest in me. I do not care for any of them.
63. I take time to forgive people for hurting me.
64. I hold grudges.
65. I have no fashion sense.
66. I can play computer games all day long, without any break except an occasional bathroom break.
67. I never read the alchemist.
68. No number of shoes are a decent number of shoes. One can always own more.
69. I do not believe in sharing.
70. I hate beer.
71. I have bad teeth. It’s genetical.
72. I secretly believe in God.
73. I often wish I were someone else.
74. I read 3 books simultaneously. Reading one book is just too boring.
75. I have a short temper.
76. I sometimes seduce guys to amuse myself.
77. People at work find me very non threatening. Hence I get along with everyone.
78. With my parents, I am a compulsive liar. With others, I am disgustingly truthful.
79. There are hardly any people whose opinion of myself matters to me.
80. I like my eyes. They are pretty.
81. Trust doesn’t come very easily to me.
82. I have infallible faith in my abilities to recover from any blow.
83. I am a terribly forgetful person
84. I worry about my health.
85. I am a jerk magnet. Rather, to be honest, I get attracted to jerks only.
86. I used to believe in Love. Now I think it’s a myth.
87. I obsess about small things.
88. I am finicky about heating.
89. Cold water scares me.
90. I like goofy guys.
91. Coffee’s yum!
92. I feel most comfortable when things around me are in a state of confusion. Gives me a strange sense of belonging.
93. Its been about a year and a half since I started working. I have already thought of retiring. Twice.
94. Sometimes… I want to deliberately hurt people. The feeling, however quickly passes away.
95. I hate hypocrites.
96. Love the Harry Potter movies.
97. I still watch cartoons
98. There was a time when I wore only black. Now I wear colours of rage – reds and oranges.
99. I think I am dispensable… in the larger scheme of things.
100. I too… am living life in moderation.