Healing

For the first time in my life, I have broken my own code. I have spoken where I shouldn’t have. I wonder why I feel guilty? Is it because I do not believe that I am right for saying exactly the thing that I wanted to say in exactly the same manner that I wanted to say it, or because I am not used to ever venting out my feelings verbally.

I always knew that there was a problem. Always knew that something wasn’t right.

I love husband. all said and done, I do love him. I have shared my most intimate moments with him and so has he. When did I lose my judgment and started to believe other people on face value? How did other people get more power on our lives than ourselves? When did all of this happen?

I will have to stop. Right here and right now. I do not fear anyone anymore, because I know that I am the only one here with any stakes involved. Also because I don’t have to be answerable to anyone anymore, other than myself.

It will take time perhaps, but it will happen!